I keep having these weird dreams all this week. That could be due to the fact that I am reading a book that is about this woman who keeps toggling between the real world and a dream world. At any rate, I think I am going to start recording my strange dreams here on my flash blog since I haven't been actually writing any flash fiction. .
Dream from January 19th, waking up to January 20th.
As in most cases with dreams, I can only remember the last bits of it from right before I wake up.
In my dream, where I remember from, I am in a classroom and it is dark in the room and there are a bunch of students of all ages and both genders. My teacher is someone that I know, but now that I am awake, I cannot recall exactly who it was, but he was a person of some authority in my life. Anyhow, he passed out a project/paper we had turned in and I was so distraught that I had only received an 88% on it, especially since I felt like I had put a lot of time and effort into it. I asked what it was that I did wrong to get such a poor grade. He pulled my project up on an overhead and started showing me that the grade was lowered because I didn't get all the lines perpendicular on my clip art and that things were off balance and not properly proportioned. I told him that I have always had a hard time seeing things properly and how could he dock me so many points just because things were lined up precisely. I asked if he even read the report, and he said yes and that it was exceptional, but he just couldn't get past the fact that all the pictures were crooked. I felt angry and wanted to leave the classroom, but I couldn't find a way out and the bell wouldn't ring to open the door. I had to stay there and feel angry and embarrassed. When the bell finally did ring, I ran out.
The next thing I knew I was at a large swimming pool. There were a lot of people around and they were diving in beautifully and gracefully. I wanted to dive in so badly, but was terrified that I would do a belly flop or that the water wouldn't part for me and I would somehow land on top of the water and look stupid. I circled the pool trying to decide the best place to try and dive in. All around me adults and children were diving in and loving it. Soon, I stood at the edge of the pool ready to dive in. I had my toes right on the edge, and the people by me were going in. I dove off the edge and sure enough, I landed on top of the water and couldn't get down underneath it. I got back out to try again. This time though someone in a big truck was coming around putting sod down where the water once was. People could still somehow dive down beneath the sod, but I couldn't understand how they were doing it. I decided to just try and dive in, but once again I landed on my hands and knees and couldn't get below the surface. I was frustrated and tried to find the person who drove the truck and was putting down the sod. I could never find him but felt like he was also someone I knew, but from my childhood, like a relative.
Then I woke up.
1 comment:
Wow Tev, those are some hard core psychological dreams. I'd say the first one is about... Someone... evaluating you by the wrong criteria, and the frustration you feel - especially knowing you put in the work and did everything right. Being trapped in the classroom represents your general feeling of being trapped with that person and their inability to see past the things they're fixated on.
Your second dream seems to be expressing your efforts in change without getting the results you're looking for. You know it can be done, you know it should be done, as far as you know you're doing it right, but you still can't "get through". I don't know what's going on in your day to day, but it sounds like your subconscious is knocking pretty hard. Love ya though! Your dreams are always fascinating!
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